Why this photographer risks her life to document war and crisis around the world

[Md. Anikuzzaman]

Everyone has their own reasons for covering war. There are people who do this job because they like to live on the edge or because they're running away from something. My reasons are more politically or sociologically driven.

I remember walking into a Sebastião Salgado exhibition, seeing these wall-sized photos and being completely overcome with emotion. I had just started photography and was shocked that an image could have such an effect on me. Realising the power of a photograph to tell stories was life-altering. I thought, 'This is something I want to do as a means of communication.'

It wasn't until a few years ago, when I sat down to write a book and used my photos as a reference, that I began looking at my body of work collectively. The main topics I've covered repeatedly are women's issues, refugees and civilians in war. For me, those subject matters are my voice – they're powerful enough that I don't need to insert myself.

I never want to be in a situation where I'm covering something out of habit. I have to feel passionately about whatever I'm doing in order to do justice to the people I cover. And you better have a reason for doing this work, because it's not easy.

Yes, it's adventurous and fun but most people, unless it's another photojournalist, can't conceive of why I would live my life like this. For years, I didn't have an answer apart from, 'It's what I believe in.' There are so many people who go through life and never find a calling but anyone who is driven by something larger than themselves will understand.

Growing up, my family home was filled with people who were considered on the margins of society, like men who dressed as women. And in 1970s Connecticut, that was quite a big deal. I was always taught to respect people for who they are and I think that helps substantially in the work I do because I can feel comfortable around anyone.

I never studied photography but there is an inherent responsibility to learn about the countries and cultures that you cover. It's not just about taking a pretty picture. You have to know that if you photograph a woman in Afghanistan without her family's consent, you can get her killed.

I'm the first person to admit that this job, as selfless as it may be, is also incredibly selfish. What we put our loved ones through is horrific. My husband, mother, father and sisters have to wonder if I'm going to come home. When I'm in survival mode somewhere, I'm trying to get through each moment by staying alive. I'm not seeing how what happens to me affects friends and family.

But when photojournalists Tim Hetherington and Chris Hondros were killed in Libya, it felt like my world came crashing down. I realized that so much of this job comes down to luck. We [a group of four New York Times journalists] should've been killed in Libya. We stayed too long and made decisions that led to our kidnapping and ultimately the death of our driver. But I talk about these things openly because I think that asking questions and thinking back over what happened is important.

As much as I try to be tough and hold myself together, the longer I do this, the more emotional I am. I've seen so many people die over the years. It doesn't get easier but I just learn to manage.

In the case of Staff Sgt. Larry Rougle, who was killed in Afghanistan by the Taliban in 2007, I had come to know him over several months and, in the moment of his death, the futility of war was so apparent to me. It seemed like such a waste of life. My answer to that is just to let myself cry and keep shooting. I have to stay focused. This is what I need to be doing with my life.

I believe people need to have perspective. I wasn't aware of the inequality that exists around the world until I started travelling and seeing injustices first-hand. So many are born into situations of hardship that I think it's our responsibility to understand or at least be aware of what's happening and, if possible, to do something about it.

Source: http://www.huckmagazine.com/art-and-culture/photography-2/photographer-risks-life-document-war-crisis-around-world/